Sunday, November 29, 2009

Self-Development #1

If there's one thing I think I'll learn from Agel it's patience. Patience has always been a sort of nemesis for me; I don't understand why things take time to reach fruition.

In an attempt to work Agel without leaving my home, I've been talking to people that Skype me, made friends, and talked about Agel. I've done with with two individuals so far. They've seemed interested, then told me some thing that they couldn't agree with. Understand, these have been hour or week friendships. I've been disappointed.

So patience comes into the picture. If I think about it, if I press the issue, I scare off any possibility of consideration. I have to learn when to let sleeping dogs lie.

In any case, I think my issue is a bit more complex than that. I need to reach supervisor level (in other words I need to subscribe two people) by the end of the month to qualify for a training next weekend, and I'm down, I don't actually believe I can make it. If I don't change this line of thought that's the sure-fire result.

I could run rabbit-circles in my head about what to do, but I do suppose I already know. I have to stop thinking about something I feel is impossible and start asking the universe for something I want that I DO think is possible.

I get what I need. I get what I want. But it's easier for the universe to know what I need than what I want because my wants aren't necessary for my survival. So I've gotta ask. I gotta believe I'll get what I ask for. And I need to do it on a consistent basis.

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