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Okay, this particular blog felt like a fail. Moreover, I am no longer a high schooler. I am eighteen and free, and still mostly pretending to be going to college when I'm really planning on taking a sabbatical. I'm starting a new blog called "The UnEdited Thoughts of QueenNaxen," where I'll be posting all the stuff that I've spread out in different websites in one sole location! Yaaay! I will no longer try to have a focus, post whatever I want, and edit only occasionally.

Soooo, to all my non-existent followers, lets move on to the next adventure!

Oh, and I'm still in Agel. xD

Why Did I Join Agel?

I'll admit that at first it was because my mom did, and I thought it would be neat to do something with her. Then, when it was agreed I'd work under my dad's name until I became legal, than take it in name as well. But those are details.

My biggest dream right now, and for the past couple of years, has been, other than graduating already, to be financially free. Not financially independent, but free. Meaning, reach a point where I could 'retire' if I so wished and be set for life, not need to work for money. If I could reach this financial point, then I could do anything I wished without the money obstacle. Travel first-class anywhere at the drop of the hat. Focus on work that doesn't produce money but would give me satisfaction, things related to charity in all it's complexities. When I achieve financial freedom, I free myself from worrying on about how to get to the end of the month before I get to the end of the money. I get the leisure to take on projects who's main purpose is to bring ME joy and satisfaction.

Yes, this is real. Visa is affiliated with Agel.

Agel offers this dream to me in a silver platter. It's only demands are that I work hard for a several years, the work being talking to people about it. I turn eighteen at the end of March. If I believe in the company, in the products, in the compensation plan for maybe three years after that, it's sure-fire I'll get my dream. Hell, if I work it really hard the very first year, take advantage of the fact that I'll be in college to really explode the thing, and explode it as much as possible here in high school while I can, I just KNOW I will be able to pay for a summer program with Action Quest this last year that I'll be able to. For this year, I'll have to rely on my mother, but next? That'll be me, being free and independent.

I've mentioned Agel to classmates in school. The responses I've gotten -I'm not interested in money, Business is not for me, I haven't got time to look at your 35 minute presentation- just anger me at times. I don't understand why they don't see that, although money isn't what life is about (I DO agree), it's an integral part of life; just like we can't function without food, in todays work we can't function without money. But it seems that that concept isn't real to most high schoolers. And because of this lack of vision, they don't understand that what I'm offering can take money from being a problem that is unimportant, but critical, to something that is unimportant, but not critical.

This is QueenNaxen everybody. My wish for YOU is that you all become financially free.

Self-Development #1

If there's one thing I think I'll learn from Agel it's patience. Patience has always been a sort of nemesis for me; I don't understand why things take time to reach fruition.

In an attempt to work Agel without leaving my home, I've been talking to people that Skype me, made friends, and talked about Agel. I've done with with two individuals so far. They've seemed interested, then told me some thing that they couldn't agree with. Understand, these have been hour or week friendships. I've been disappointed.

So patience comes into the picture. If I think about it, if I press the issue, I scare off any possibility of consideration. I have to learn when to let sleeping dogs lie.

In any case, I think my issue is a bit more complex than that. I need to reach supervisor level (in other words I need to subscribe two people) by the end of the month to qualify for a training next weekend, and I'm down, I don't actually believe I can make it. If I don't change this line of thought that's the sure-fire result.

I could run rabbit-circles in my head about what to do, but I do suppose I already know. I have to stop thinking about something I feel is impossible and start asking the universe for something I want that I DO think is possible.

I get what I need. I get what I want. But it's easier for the universe to know what I need than what I want because my wants aren't necessary for my survival. So I've gotta ask. I gotta believe I'll get what I ask for. And I need to do it on a consistent basis.

Why do teacher's make up rules to asset their superiority?

Isn't it bizarre when students doing something they are perfectly free to do are scolded for it? The fault is evidently the teacher's in the case; yes, we all know the rules. Of course we do! Why would we break them? We certainly don't want to conflict with the teachers!

So why do teacher's do that? Is it some sort of personal insecurity, some mental phobia that leads them to look for trouble with the students? To abuse a student's rights, just because a teacher's word probably carries more weight? Or is it because the conflict with the student is about something small enough that the teacher can try to fight this mental issue, but not have the teacher brought to task over it?

This is just my reaction to a small scuffle in my school's computer lab today during lunch about music. I personally thought the teacher was in the wrong, even though I had no particular attachment to the student victim. The teacher tried to use the fact that the Stuco president (who took no sides) was present, cited no reliable rule book, and won, just because the students didn't want to deal with him.

Does he wonder people question his authority? After all, when authority is abused, rather than wielded with care, there becomes even less reason to obey. I personally believe this particular teacher's status among students is as bad as it is out of his own doing, his insecurity in just being a substitute teacher, rather than one of a regular class.

Until further ravings,
QueenNaxen

Began Working for Real

My, what a wonderful and busy day it was yesterday! I actually ended up working until eleven at night! But I have to admit I'm pleased; from three to eleven I was working on building my financial base, the one I will live off of in the future.

Yeah, I'm taking about Agel.

Truthfully, it wasn't my intention to work Agel today. Serious! I had homework to do (which I am now doing in the wee hours of the morning), I had had a biology test in school. But opportunity doesn't care! When I went to walk in the park, I ended up speaking to a few ladies; then five ladies ended up coming to my home to view the presentation. Of those five, one in particular looked really into it (her grandmother was also egging her on), another looked like she was thinking pretty hard on it, and the rest looked blank. Considering the usual ratio of 1:10 people being interested, 2 out of 5 seems awesome.

So, I took the one most eager to a meeting; that lasted till nine. Then I was so hyped, I ended up really speaking about and explaining Agel to a chat friend I have in Saudi Arabia. He is now also interested in getting involved with Agel.

Neat huh? Moreover, what I personally found funny was that earlier in school I was inviting people to a presentation in my home on Tuesday. I meant the Tuesday of the following week in my mind. The universe doesn't seem to care, cuz I ended up doing one THIS Tuesday.

Anyway, lot's of fun and financial freedom mixed together.

Later,

QueenNaxen

Drowning on the Shore

My mom often scolds me when I'm down about school, saying a typical venezuelan thing, "Has nadado tanto solo para morir en la orilla?" (have you swum for so long just to die right at the shore?). Truth be told, I feel like I'm drowning.

Remember how those days right before summer are? You have maybe two weeks left of school, and you're mind is on summer, but you can't afford it! Right before summer are the semestrals! So you wish you could send it all to hell and do summer already, but you actually have to be more focused than you normally do on your studies. Am I painting a familiar image here?

Anyway, later

QueenNaxen

New Museum Project

Couple things going on.

As usual I'm still working on my common application, on and off, doing the supplements and all.

I also went to Panama's Museum of Natural History. The place is a mess; me and a group of students are going to help renovate the place. There's a lot of potential to the project: there's some structural and esthetic things to do. I like dealing with space and esthetic, specially when I don't have to draw things out to explain myself, so this project really suits me. Also, just to get people flowing in, I'd like to try finding scientists interested in presenting their work coming in, and inviting the kind of people that donate to museums to visit and donate.

A good number of my team members think that's far fetched thinking, they don't really think that can happen, but I think with some effort it's a reasonable, achievable goal.

Also pretty cool is the fact that the teacher supervisor studied in Oberlin, one of the five colleges I'm applying to. I had quite the interesting chat with her while a bunch of us waited for our rides to pick us up. She was interested in Agel, Kiva, and seemed to think I am the kind of student that would fit in Oberlin, so it was pretty neat. I gave her an Agel magazine and an Umi. I'll be speaking with her soon.

Until later posts,

QueenNaxen